Ch-Ch-Changes

It has been said that the only constant is change. I am pretty sure if it weren’t for changes, nothing would happen in my life! Most days, I can handle all these changes. Most days. Then there are the days when I want to have a MAJOR freak out because there is SO MUCH changing SO FAST that I can’t seem to keep up! Ever felt that way? 

I used to think (foolishly) that I was totally o.k. with change. I could not have been more off the mark. I am totally NOT o.k. with change. I like things to go a certain way. I crave routine. I like to know what to expect. Not a fan of surprises. Let me repeat: Not.  a. fan.

I do wonder how I lived a large portion of my life fooling myself that I was a spontaneous, surprise loving gal? It wasn’t until very recently that I realized (or maybe accepted is a better word?) that surprises or not knowing what to expect, terrifies me. I’m talking profuse sweating, upset stomach, urge to vomit type reaction here. I am sure if I was the type to analyze things, I could look back on some key events that have happened in my life that perhaps changed me. But, honestly, I think this all comes from a deep rooted desire to have control over things. 

C-O-N-T-R-O-L

I really, really, really like to feel in control of things. I like to be the boss. (Just ask my Mom!) But feeling in control is a funny thing – especially when you make the decision to let God back into the drivers seat!  God comes in and says: “I see your plan, but I am about to shake things up a bit.” And if you are me, the shaking He is talking about is a lot more than a bit!

For example, in the past 3 years here is a list of changes our family has experienced: 

Grow from a family of 4 to a family of 5
2 weeks later – move said family to a brand new city,  3 1/2 hrs away from friends and family
Get settled into nice spacious (3600 sq ft) home, move from spacious home, to smaller (1200 sq ft) apartment
Grow to family of 6
2 months later move to another brand new city, (where we at least know 5 people) into an even smaller (1000 sq ft) mobile home
Husband transitions to full time vocational ministry

AAHHHHHH! Can not believe most of the above happened in less than 2 years.. 

And yet, I did not have a complete breakdown. Only explanation I have is God. I know He is holding me together, guiding me, helping me to be o.k. with all the changes.  I am pretty sure that change and I will never be “best friends” and I am alright with that.  However, I am hopeful that we can at least be friends. 

It is because of the Lord’s mercy and loving-kindness that we are not consumed, because His [tender] compassions fail not.

23 They are new every morning; great and abundant is Your stability and faithfulness.

Lamentations 3: 22 – 23
Amplified

Everything you ever wanted to know…..

I should have added “about Breeann Villarreal” to the end of the title. But, then you might not have read this, huh?

I am  first and foremost, a Christ follower. I strive to keep Christ in the center of all I do. I fall short, very short, a lot. But there are times, glorious times,  when I am successful and allow Christ the room He needs to help me be all He desires. I am committed to living out my faith on daily basis, learning from my mistakes and accepting the grace that God generously pours out on me.

I have been married for 11 years (at the end of the month) to a great man. During this past decade (Oh. My. Goodness!) I have learned so much. We have grown together, pushed each other away, and pulled each other close. At times I have thought I could walk through this journey with out him, and have come to realize that there is no way I would want to!

We have been blessed with 3 children. Aiden, 8 years old and too smart for his own good! He loves dinosaurs, the solar system, superheroes and Japanese Anime. He is probably the pickiest eater you will ever meet – but we are working on that! Olivia is 6 years old and wants to be the boss! She is smarter than she knows, loves to host tea parties, dress up and get her nails painted. Liam is our newest blessing. He was born in January, is learning to sleep through the night and he has s smile that lights up the room.

Things I am passionate about:
God’s grace and the relationship we can have with Him when we fully accept it
My family
Homeschooling
Cupcakes
Coffee
Cooking/baking
Cloth diapering
Breastfeeding
Cupcakes
Getting a bargain
Delayed (or none at all) vaccinations
Scrapbooking

Oh – Did I mention cupcakes?!?!?!?

 

More tomorrow!
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